Human Wolf....Spotted!

Attention, a human wolf has been spotted in Ohio, around Downtown Akron, running in and out of traffic!

Where is there any traffic in this picture?

I'm just messing with you, there obviously aren't any werewolves running around through the streets of Downtown Akron...but how cool would that be!? Anyway, the purpose of this post is just to elaborate on why my blog is now titled "Life of a Human Wolf." I would first like to say that I'm obviously a human and I don't believe myself to be anything different. But the wolves are my favorite animal and I have learned so much from the wolf. At times I'd say that I have the personality/behavior like that of a wolf. I treat my family as my pack, I will defend them with my life and I'm loyal through thick and thin. It's not just me who thinks I display their behavior either, my best friend and my family members have said that I'm like the pup watcher of the family. The pup watcher, as I'm sure most of you know, is the wolf in the pack that watches the young pups of the other wolves when they are away. The pup watcher is usually the 1st to teach the pups about survival and is usually considered one of the most aggressive wolves in the pack. Why? They watch all the pups, developing a bond, and when someone threatens the pack...they're threatening the lives of each one of her pups.

I'd say I fit that description, I absolutely adore children and at family gatherings...9 times out of 10 I am the one watching and entertaining the children. To the children, I'm like a big kid who still likes to play and have fun but is responsible and demonstrates good life lessons in my games. A good example is the game "Ghost in the Graveyard," basically there is one child who is the ghost hunter and the rest of the children are the ghosts in the graveyard. The point of the game is that when the "ghost hunter" is not looking at you, the children that are the "ghosts" dance around and make faces at the "hunter." If the "hunter" catches you moving, then you're the new "ghost hunter." The lesson I share with the children is this: There will always be someone who talks or makes fun of you behind your back and you won't always know who it is. You can look and look all day long but once you look their way, they will put on an act. They pretend that they aren't doing anything, that they haven't done anything to hurt you in any way. However, when the "ghost" is caught by the "hunter" and they're it, this symbolizes that those who do wrong will receive their just desserts. Whatever you send out will come right back to you, three times as worse. This is what we call...karma. Now that the previous "ghost" is the new "hunter," they now know how much it hurts to have someone making fun of you behind you're back.

Moving along, I've always referred to the children I watch often as my own kids. I've never once said, "my cousin's kids;" they've always been "my kids." Because that's how often I watch them, that's how deep a bond I have with each of them. If anyone ever tried to hurt them, you can guarantee that the protective wolf in me would come out and let their attackers have it. I also find myself desiring the freedom to live in the forest, away from civilization, to live with just my family. I also find that I prefer the night rather than day. During the day, I find I'm less active and excited when the sun goes down and I can see the moon. I would definitely say I'm far more active at night, it gets so bad sometimes that I'm up throughout the entire night and sleepy during the day.

There are several more factors as to why I'd say my personality is closer to a wolf than anything else in nature. I wouldn't even say my behavior would be considered "normal" to most people. Whenever my best friend would try to wake me in the morning, I'd always growl in my sleep and turn away from her. She'd always yell at me to "stop that growling and get out of bed." I always thought she was joking when she'd tell me that I'd growl at her. But I realized she was being completely honest, one day we were sitting in the dining hall at our college (mind you, I always get frustrated when she's right and I know I'm wrong) and without even realizing it, I was growling at her because I was frustrated with her. She pointed it out to me, "hey, you're growling at me again... I told you that you growl at me." It wasn't just her but some of my classmates noticed that I'd growl when I'm frustrated with anything. I was working on a project for a class and was so frustrated with it, I had my arms on the table (folded across one another) and my head set on top. I just sat there staring at the project and was quietly growling but it was loud enough for my classmate to hear. She then asked, "Why are you growling at your project?" I snapped back to it and glanced over to her, "what are you talking about? I'm not growling." And there are several more occasions where this occurred...

Anyway, I also have a strong bond with the wolf. It is the wolf that has helped me through so much and has allowed me to better myself as a person. I have learned several lessons from the wolf and that is probably why my personality/behavior is similar to a wolf. I have been influenced by them, by their behaviors in dealing with family, strangers and all kinds of different situations. I'm glad that I am so attached to the wolf and that this beautiful creature has become my favorite animal and wise teacher.

So to reiterate, I am in fact a human but a human whose life has been influenced/changed by the wolf. So much so that my behavior reflects that of a wolf, which is why this blog is titled, "Life of a Human Wolf." I realize that this sounds strange and I certainly don't blame you if you don't understand but I do expect that you give me the respect I deserve as I will do the same for you.