Today is the day I vow to start my mission of self-improvement! Recently I have been told by my mother and grandmother that I have lost some weight. That is a very good thing, however looking at myself in the mirror I find myself hit with realization. I am obese and at the size I am now...that's after I have lost some weight. I am extremely disappointed with myself because I know I can do much better.
When I look in the mirror, I ask myself who that person is.
I'm constantly telling myself that I'll never date, marry or have kids. I cry almost every day because I know I'm not desirable in anyway. It drives me crazy when skinny girls complain at how "fat they are" when I've almost hit the 300lb mark. When I stood on the scale I knew I had to take action and take back my life. This mission will not be easy, in fact it's extremely difficult. It's a lot harder to lose weight compared to gaining it. You work so hard to lose just 5lbs, then with just one or two meals...you've put it right back on.
I feel that people who are in my similar situation do not find much support. So, I invite all who want to lose weight and eat better to join me on the mission to self-improvement. I hope that by writing these posts and talking to one another, the mission will not be as difficult.
My goal is to lose 5% of my current body weight! Starting tomorrow, the food will be recorded and I'll be exercising everyday! I'll be writing again soon!
See You Tomorrow!
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