It's Been A While...

Yeah... Where have you been!?

I know, I know... Haven't done any posts since Sunday but don't worry, I'm still dedicated to following through on my mission! So, I had a wonderful surprise after I got off work Sunday... My cousin Ally was hiding in the back of my mom's car when she came to pick me up! I was ecstatic to finally see her, it had been so long since I'd seen her last. An even bigger surprise, she was able to stay the night since I didn't work that following Monday. We had so much fun, Sunday night we all went to the drive-in and saw the movies "Inside/Out" and "Terminator: Genesis." Of course since Ally is only a little girl, she fell asleep by the time Terminator rolled around. That morning Ally and I had breakfast and went for a walk, since it was so hot and Ally had been so good...I bought her some ice-cream to have on the way home. Then we had our lunch and decided to look for a movie on Netflix together. I stopped at Dumbo, recalling how much I loved that movie when I was little. However, I had come to learn that Ally had never seen it. Therefore, it became my mission to have her sit with me and watch Dumbo together. Ally didn't seem to like the movie all too well, after all that "Pink Elephants" part is quite terrifying. That part always freaked me out when I was little, I remember how I always wanted to fast-forward it...I still do to this day. Well, the time for her dad to come pick her up was slowly approaching and Ally insisted that we needed to have our girl time. So, she ran upstairs to my room and informed me that we needed to do hair and make-up. I reluctantly agreed...only because her heart was set on it and she was just too darn sweet. And so...I let her do my hair and make-up.

I must admit that I looked quite fabulous! Look out world...here I come! Please, no pictures...I don't want to ruin my beautiful make-up! ^.^ Anyway, I did splurge a little bit since Ally and I were spending some time together but I'm not really worried.

I've decided to make it a goal to go to the gym on my days off as often as I can. By doing so, I will feel better about myself which will help me to be more positive. As a result, I won't be needing to seek comfort because of negative emotions. I won't be eating out of boredom nor will I be eating after I'm full of food. There will obviously be many positive outcomes as a result of going to the gym more often. First: I will be more positive and happy with myself. Second: I will begin to lose weight which will add to my feelings of positivity but also help my body feel better. Third: By losing weight, I will start sleeping better at night. Fourth: I will live a longer life because I have decreased any health risks that I may face. Fifth: Because I will live longer, I will have the chance to be a mother and live to see my children grow up. Sixth (the most important): By going to the gym, I have the ability to encourage my mom to go as well which will give her the chance to live to see her grandchildren.

The last couple of reasons that are listed above were the deciding factors in me wanting to lose weight. I want to feel better about myself, I want to live to see my children grow up and I also want my children to have the chance to know their grandmother.

I always try to make it a point in my posts to be encouraging to any individuals who are in my position as well. So, here it goes... I do strongly encourage anyone in my position to go to the gym, go for a hike at the metro parks, play some football or basketball with your brother, play tag with your kids, go swimming (you don't have to be alone), do something that's going to help you work up a sweat but is something that you love. If you love to swim, hike, run, etc, then it's not going to be as difficult for you to find the motivation to get up and work out.

If you do struggle with motivation for yourself then remember your parents, your children, any members in your family. No parent wants to outlive their baby, no child wants to grow up without a loving parent, a sibling's bond is strong...you shouldn't let something so precious weaken because you didn't care enough for your body, remember your grandparents; they're a bit of parent, teacher and friend, many grandparents think of their grandchildren as their own (the same goes for them as well, they shouldn't outlive their grandchildren either). Remember all your family and friends, your death affects them as well. You must also remember that your death may also affect future family members as well. So, please... if you're struggling with a binge eating disorder like I am, if you've gained weight because of the disorder, and have a hard time staying motivated as well as staying happy... remember your loved ones. Their happiness is the biggest motivation that you could ever have.

Well, that's pretty much it for this post! I will be publishing another post right after this one with today's recipe, enjoy your day and please be safe.